i hate my birthday... and selfies

there I said it, as an annoyingly optimistic and constant goal-setting perfectionist I have a hard time with the idea of looking over your year and measuring your actual outcomes against your goals. i am harder on myself than anyone else and have very high expectations. when a birthday rolls around i hide, i get awkward because i don't want to be in the wrong place at the wrong time (i.e. near my mom and a restaurant that allows people to sing to birthday girls!) and i hate the attention. so... now it is almost two months after my birthday so this seems like a wonderful time to post this:)

very close to my 31st birthday i was having a hard time trying to accomplish all that my life needed me to. there were two little humans, one big human, one full-time business, one part-time business, family, friends, a house... nothing really that no one else had, but it was making me tired. i mean really tired. i felt lazy and i felt like i was not doing any of it well. my brain was foggy, my muscles were tired, i was so tired but could not sleep, i was more forgetful than usual, i couldn't lose weight and was out of control with my emotions. the first morning i made coffee for myself i felt very weird. i had never relied on anything to stay awake and, maybe it was the caffeine, it made me stop to think. i thought of how out of control it all seemed and how i could have not noticed that i was not okay. sometimes i internalize things so much and for so long that i truly believe they are the truth.

as with everything in my life, i spoke to my best friend about it. he (glenn) told me that i was not lazy and that i should in fact go to the doctor to get it checked out. when i went i was told that i needed go on anti-depressants and that we would have to start trying thyroid medications. i believe that medication has its role and have actually had to use it before, but i knew something else was wrong. i thanked the doctor for his time and told him i would not take his prescription. i then booked a very expensive consultation with a naturopath and headed off to see her. during the meeting with the naturopath i was told that my thyroid and adrenal health was devastating. i was given some supplements to try to kick start things and was told the only reason that i was even doing as well as i was was due to the fact that our family eats very well. with glenn's crohns disease we basically eat paleo. i began using the supplements and saw a huge difference in some symptoms such as skin dryness, sleeping at night and some ease in cravings. the only bad thing was my migraine activity went through the roof. i needed something different and started searching... and searching... finally i found what works for me. it is called thrive and it has changed my life. i haven't felt this good in a long time and it is starting to show. this is not a sales pitch, but it is something that is working for me and i would love to help you out if you feel it is right for you! here is a link that you can view the program on and please let me know if you have any other questions!

http://chelsdawn.le-vel.com/

to keep this post somewhat light and casual... here are some other things that work for me

eyelash extensions - seriously changed my life and i feel weird saying that because i am NOT someone who spends much time on my makeup

in-home childcare - i have childcare come to my home one day a week and don't know how i would do what i do without this

paper planners and iPhone alarms - i have to have both. i remember things better if i have written them down but can't trust myself without an alarm

becoming - this event gives me such a boost and i don't think i can do my business without it. i love you ladies

mint.com - this financial tracker app is amazing and my husband and i love to see our accounts in real time... or sometimes hate to see them:(

chalkboards - i love these suckers

muck boots - honestly... i am not cool at all. most of my photography sessions include me wearing these. i am not the photographer that shoots in heels

j.crew - i have always and will always love their brand. it just works for me

online shopping and then leaving the cart - sometimes i need to shop online, fill a cart and then leave it. no buyers remorse and with the wonderful cookies i can usually find it if i indeed need the items

iPhone - this works for me. everything about apple products make me happy and... well... they are beautiful

topknot - i have no idea what i will do when this is not okay to wear in public

hippie chic - this fragrance has raspberry in it... sold!

Instagram - if you love pictures and hate drama then Instagram is for you... and me

target dollar items - my heart broke when target pulled from Canada. i guess i am back to bringing a spare suitcase to the states when we go

suave dry shampoo - only found in the states so i get my family to bootleg it back for me

soft lips - this is the best for chapped lips. my fav is the coconut one

joe - this clothing line for superstore is the best and reminds me of a cheaper j.crew

glenn - he is my opposite and is the best thing that ever happened to me. he is my biggest fan and my strongest defender. i love him and am grateful for him EVERYDAY

kraft peanut butter - we have tried it all and just keep going back to this one

clothing optional living - haaaaa!! i can see you all cringing... haaaaa!! but seriously... call before you stop by

diy laundry detergent and febreeze - when you have kids you will understand

power nap app - i am a horrible napper and can never make myself get up or when i do i am grumpy. this app is perfect to put you to sleep and wake you up in an 'unbear' like way

white - love it... am drawn to it... can't live without it

texting - my preferred way of communicating. possibly because i can use point form

ed sheeran, dolly parton, gary allan, jonny lang, ray lamontagne, taylor swift, pink and lora jol - they always make it better

self employment - i am grateful for my husband who works so i can stay home and also run my own business

fostering and adoption - works for us

forest green and gray - also love these... not in the same way as white, but they still deserved a mention

aviators - yup, tried other sunglasses and keep coming back to these

well, that may be everything that i can think of. these are some of the things that work for me. hope you enjoy!

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